It’s not a matter of willpower

As I work my program in these drastic coronavirus times, I am reminded how powerless I am over my disease. Now is the time to stick to my routine more than ever. It is my foundation. Just because the rug has been pulled out from under me does not mean that my disease went away. Oh no. It is scheming behind my back, waiting for that distracted moment to latch itself onto my thinking the same way the virus latches itself onto tissue. Once it has a hold on me, my immune system (the program), has to be stronger than it is. God is stronger but God alone cannot “recover” me. I have a huge part in my recovery. I have to step into it today, just like yesterday, and go for the ride of my life, to save my life.