HOW ONE-ON-ONE CONVERSATIONS HELP MY RECOVERY

“In talking honestly to a fellow addict, I am speaking to someone who is afflicted with the disease of addiction also. One addict helping another is without parallel. Just to know someone completely understands why I do what I do, and accepts me, is very freeing. I’m not different and I’m not alone.”
Danah K.

“When I talk with fellow sufferers, I see myself and my disease from a fresh perspective. I listen to my own thoughts too much and I am in big trouble! I need to hear the principles of the program and how they work in others’ lives and I can apply them more appropriately in mine. Also, in my part of the conversation, I verbalize what I see to be true – about God, myself, and this program. This helps me do several things: hear myself and know if I am being truthful; share what has been given to me; and offer strength and hope to another compulsive overeater.”
Kathy W.

“In the last year, I have spoken with my sponsor almost every work day either in person on the phone, or to her voicemail, which is almost as good. What that’s done for me is truly miraculous. I write in the morning before breakfast and that puts me in conscious contact with God because I try to be open and honest as if I were talking directly to God. In the afternoon after lunch, but before I go home, I call my sponsor and read to her what I have written. This serves four purposes: (1) I get to make conscious contact with God again, (2) I get to hear myself and what I wrote, which reinforces my thoughts, (3) I get to hear my sponsor’s feedback, which is always kind, non-judgmental, and intuitive, and (4) when I get home, I am not lonely. That was always the moment I would start bingeing. It’s been so important to me to have that hole in my heart filled before I walk in the door. I have a house full of people waiting for me, but I can still be lonely.”
Betsy H.

“I get to understand others’ journeys, struggles, successes, and how they are able to work the Steps. I get to share my own struggles and we have talked about what is helping my life improve. I am not alone. I have hope.”
Charra W

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Why do I have to be “restored to sanity”?

• First of all, let’s be clear that I am not insane. I have a job, I went to college. I have won awards for this and that. I have a family, a house, and two cars in the garage. I have pets. I am normal. I am successful.
• I resent the idea that I’m insane. I’m like everyone else.
• I love to eat. What’s wrong with that?
• I keep gaining weight but that’s okay these days. There are lots of places to buy clothes my size and I can own my own kind of beauty.
• I should be proud but I’m not.
• I would rather be thin. I hurt all the time and I’m afraid what might happen to me as I get older.
• I try to diet but it never works for very long.
• I can’t eat like other people. I watch them and they can stop after a few bites. Then I can see them watching me and I am embarrassed and ashamed.
• I don’t seem to be able to stop eating until I’m so full I have to stop. And then when I stand up, I realize I’m way too full. Then I hurt again.
• I hate myself in the morning when I get up and swear I will not eat too much today.
• I get angry real easy with my family. I hate them. I don’t want anyone telling me what to do!
• I’m getting to where I go to fast food places by myself and eat in the car and then throw away the wrappers so no one will know. I almost had a car wreck because I wasn’t watching the road. I was too busy stuffing my mouth.
• The other day, I got food out of the garbage.
• And, I even ate partially frozen food because I couldn’t wait. The microwaves just aren’t fast enough!
• Is this insanity?

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What is my solution?

• Admitting that I no longer know what to do to fix myself. Diets no longer work. Exercise isn’t working or I don’t do it.
• Hitting a brick wall – that seems to be myself.
• Loss of pride enough to ask for help.
• Finding this fellowship where there are people just like me.
• Going to meetings.
• Getting a sponsor.
• Doing what my sponsor says, which includes adopting a food plan for today, making a plan of action for all kinds of circumstances in which I will find myself, like a football party for the Super Bowl, changing my behavior, which might include staying away from certain people, places, and things, working the Steps, whatever that means, going to OA workshops and retreats, putting myself and my needs first.
• Put down the food.
• I didn’t like my old life; the program of recovery means I will have a new life with new habits and new ways of thinking. I may even have new friends.
• I will spend time getting to know myself like I never have done before. “Ignorance is developed when we don’t know what we don’t know.” Joe McQ. from AA
• Do whatever is requested or required.
• Go to any lengths.
• Talk to other OAs constantly to learn who I am.
• Get rid of my secrets. In here, they are the same secrets everyone else has so they really aren’t so secret after all.
• Choose to do the next right thing.
• White-knuckle it and grit my teeth at the same time.
• Let go of suffering.
• Grab on to life and do it scared.
• Alternatively, I could just keep doing what I’ve always done and stick with the following:
• Desperation.
• Hopelessness.
• Misery.
• Pain.
• Disgust.
• Repulsion.
• Shame.
• Guilt.
• Surfeit.
• Abandonment.

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